Wednesday, 26 September 2012

An Epiphany

I have no idea what I'm going to write in this blog post. I thought I would just wing it and write what ever comes to mind.
Here I am sitting at my pc waiting for chicken to defrost so I can have chicken and salad for lunch, which I have been eating non stop for the past 3 weeks and astonishingly haven't got sick of it yet. It is definitely directly responsible for me loosing 5kg is under 3 weeks so I guess that helps.
I am so incredibly proud of Bradley and my self for actually sticking to this diet, 500th time lucky I always say. We still have quite a ways to go so we can't get too complacent just yet.

I can honestly say I wasted the last 6 years of my life. Yes they were amazingly fun and yes I had a great time with only a few major hiccups along the way, which in compassion to some peoples lives seem so insignificantly trivial. I feel as though I grew a lot as a person and learned some extraordinarily valuable life lessons and met some truly amazing people with out whom I would I would either be sprinkled over Jim Morrison's grave site or have just spiraled down until I was a hollow shell of a girl. To those people I say thank you for keeping me sane.
In the years I spent worrying about boys, listening to way too much emo music and feeling sorry for myself, I really should have been thinking about what I wanted to do with my life.
I'm 24 and only this year have I finally figured out what I want to do. Having said that it wasn't until I started loosing weight that I actually found some scrap of motivation to do something. Even then the only thing I am motivated towards is loosing weight.
I mean I have a fantastic unit on photography that I'm doing at uni but getting motivated to actually sit down and do it is a hell of a lot harder than it should be and I hate myself for it. I could blame video games, tv, and facebook but really the only one at fault is myself.

I have lost my enthusiasm for things I was once enthralled with. I mean I still love it but haven't done anything about it for at least a year, I dare say that's due to living somewhere that I'm not entirely comfortable and not having my own space, but that being said I should be able to adapt.

This last year has been a complete roller coaster. Starting with loosing the best job I have ever had,  finding out I'm not good enough to be a professional piercer, finally freeing myself of  the most unhealthy relationship I have ever been in (no offence Tyler you're a great person), to starting my first truly healthy and happy relationship with someone I truly believe to be my soulmate.
I went from having my own little apartment where I was free to do what I wanted when I wanted, to living with my boyfriends parents and having my entire existence confined to 2 small rooms.

I know I need to change things in a big way but I feel like the're are so many things that keep holding me back, but I think now is as good a time as any. I have to stop giving my self excuses to not do things and take a deep breath and let go of all the negative thoughts I keep harboring and move on.

I am going to stop relying and concentrating on others and start doing things for myself.
It begins now!

Friday, 21 September 2012

The Best Birthday Thus Far!!!

Alright so 2 weeks ago I turned 24, I know what you're thinking, "She's fucking ancient" I know right mid twenties already my life is over! I kid lol ^_^. Any way it is safe to say that this year was the best birthday I have had thus far.

I have never completely warmed to the idea of camping and I don't know what possessed me to choose camping as this years birthday activity but it completely quashed all my expectations. Apart from the absolutely perfect weather and the fact that we managed to coax my mum, brother and best friend along with us (my dad, sister and boyfriend were already super keen)  it was the most amazingly picturesque place I have ever and probably will ever visit.

This perfect little place is called Sandon River which is in Brooms Head NSW about 2.5 hours south of Tweed and let me just say it is quite the popular little place. 
The original plan was for the boys to head down on Thursday to set up and get a good spot and the girls would head down on Friday afternoon after mum had finished work. Though true to form dad made the executive decision that they would go on Friday morning at 8am on the dot, and by 8am I mean 10:30am and by on the dot I mean somewhere in the vicinity of. Though they got there in the end with out drama and found a perfect little spot and did a fantastic job of setting up. It had just the right amount of privacy and was incredibly cosy.
Dad had gone on a ebay spree a week earlier and bought a new 12 man tent and a camp kitchen so we had the best little set up.

My mum, sister, best friend and I had to play a fun little game called human Tetris because the boys had conveniently left us with more stuff than we could fit, but we figured it out and were off on our 2 and a half hour journey to the middle of east jesus nowhere. 
So 2 and a half rather cramped hours later we arrived. We expected the boys to still be setting up but much to our surprise it was all done. 
We managed to get there just before sunset, and it was the most beautiful sunset I have ever witnessed.  We explored the beach in the remaining light and discovered a sculpture that freaked us all out, but I aptly named Milky Joe because he had a coconut for a head (it's a Mighty Boosh reference for those of you who aren't familiar with the amazingness that is the Boosh)

By Saturday morning (our second day) there wasn't a camp site left but having said that it was by no means crowded. I mean we almost always had the beach to ourselves, our campsite was by no means isolated but it wasn't so close that the people next to us annoyed us, although on the second day the people next to us were playing the same CD on loop all day, but it was alright because we would just find some where to explore. 

The beach was by far my favorite part, which is odd because I generally hate the beach. 
The second morning we woke up at pretty much sunrise and explored the beach almost the entire day. 
Along the shoreline was all the debris washed up from the ocean. 
You know how fish and chip shops and other places with nautical themes have all the shells, seaweed, fish and what not arranged in perfect little displays, well all along this shore line were little arrangements just like it. It was as if the ocean had perfectly arranged them just for us (christ how corny was that line ^_^).
I could have walked up and down the shore line all day just looking and taking photos of it all. 

Because we were up at sunrise we managed to get a lot of exploring done that day. We went into town, and when I say town I mean there is a few houses a caravan park and a general store and that's pretty much it, but there is a headland! 
So we went up one of the walking tracks on the headland and I had a photographic field day. The views were stunning! Every where you looked was either ocean and beach or bush, and both were as beautiful as each other. What was even more amazing was that my brother accompanied us on our little adventure and didn't complain once! We then got ice cream and went back to the camp site by that time is was only like 2 o'clock so we went and explored the beach some more.

We managed to find a plethora of amazing things washed up on the beach. Lobster carcasses, childrens shoes and toys, a perfectly square rock (which I am in the process of turning into a companion cube), my sister found the bottom of what I'm guessing is a beer bottle that had 1953 printed on it which was an awesome find, we even found a bird skull. I also found a jar embedded in a sand bank which I wish I had taken, although if it is still there when we go back (and we are going back as soon as possible) I shall take it with me.

We ended our second and final night with an awesome steak dinner and then we were up before sunrise so I could take photos of the start of our last day.
I hadn't watched a sunrise in years and it was spectacular! My camera battery was on its last legs by that point but I managed to get some amazing shots. Including some of what we though was a suspiciously slow moving comet, but turns out is was a plane whose vapor trail was being illuminated by the rising sun. There was also a crazy guy on a paddle board, it was freezing at that time in the morning I don't know how he managed to do it but it meant I got one last amazing shot before my battery died. 
We had breakfast, courtesy of Bradley, explored a little more and then packed up and were ready to go by lunch time.

I was incredibly sad to be leaving, all I wanted to do was stay and explore some more, but it's not going anywhere so we will be back. It was by far the best weekend of my life and I feel like a new person having gone there.

I almost forgot to mention the stars!!! I haven't seen them that clear god knows how long. I could have sat on the beach all night just staring at them.
 Look up at the night sky and take note of the amount of stars, now multiply them by about a million and that's how many stars we could see out there. You don't realize just how much light pollution effects the amount of stars you see until you go somewhere with no light pollution.

We also had some pretty intense jenga matches during breakfast, Shannen lost every game.

My presents were also fantastic, Sare got me a bottle of long island and bedazzled the top like a pro, Bradley got me a Minecraft diamond necklace and Firefly on dvd and my parents got me a tripod, a fantasitc photography book and a bunch of clothes and panties. 

Thus ends the tale of my best birthday to date. I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it, be awesome to each other and peace out.
I would also  like to add I have never seen so many kangaroos in one place in my life.

Wednesday, 12 September 2012

And so begins my inevitable addiction to writing blogs

Ok so I haven't written a blog since myspace and I'm fairly sure the last blog I wrote on that was either about how difficult it was to give up chocolate for a month or how I got to shake Gerard Way from My Chemical Romance's hand and almost passed out from hyperventilating. I feel as though I have come a long way since then, well at least I hope I have.

So where to start, I just turned 24, I'm a full time student who finds it extraordinarily difficult to concentrate 95% of the time. The other 5% I'm a complete genius, well at least I like to think I am, in saying that I am writing this blog instead of finishing an assignment, go figure ^_^.
 I am completely obsessed with photography, music and art. Andy Warhol is my favorite artist, in high school art every assignment we had I would some how manage to relate it back to Andy. The topic could be to write 500 words on the art work of an ancient tribe in the South Pacific and I would still be able to make it about Mr Warhol.
 I just got my very first DSLR (Cannon 600D). Before that I was relying on my little Cannon PowerShot A2000 and my iphone that functions better as a camera than it does as a phone and its a pretty shit camera ^_^ . I have had my DSLR just over a month and have managed to take about 7000 photos.

I am studying photography at RMIT through Open Universities Australia but they don't do an entire bachelor, so here's hoping I get into Griffith!
My goal is to be a professional photographer. Nature is probably my favorite photography subject but that being said I haven't really done anything else although I have been experimenting with still life and will be doing my first shoot with a model in the not to distant future, and by model I mean a friend who is really pretty. I'm hoping that in the future I will see her in a magazine and be able to say "I did her first shoot" and therefore wont feel guilty when asking her for money ^_^.

I am a bit of a geek, the first joint purchase my boyfriend an I made was a Lego Millennium Falcon, we managed to space the build out over about 6 weeks much to his disgust.My dad sat me down to watch Star Wars when I was 5 and I have been madly in love ever since. I am also not ashamed to admit that when I was 11 I had a huge crush on Mark Hamill and actually kinda still do.
I'm not a massive gamer but am pretty addicted to minecraft. There isn't a day when I'm not in my awesome little world running around building my kingdom, slaying spiders and creepers and talking to myself in Toby Turners voice. I love it so much that instead of buying me a real diamond necklace for my birthday my boyfriend bought me a mincraft diamond necklace and wrapped it in diamond ore wrapping paper ^_^.
He also bought me Firefly which is my favorite show. It was pretty much the best birthday ever.
My favorite band is The Doors. Jim Morrison's voice is hypnotic and I am madly in love with him.
I would give anything to be able to go back in time to Woodstock '69. America in the 60's and 70's is my ideal time period.

I guess I should end it there or else I wont have anything else to blog about in the future.
So on that bomb shell I leave you with my five favorite pictures that I have taken with my new baby.
Have fun and such xoxo